Tough and Tumble Week

This week has been inSANE. I finally (it's only been 3 weeks; I am so so impatient) starting to feel like I'm getting the hang of my job. Hardly good at it yet, but seeing how I might be. I also had a crazy week because I got in sort of a fight with my roommates and briefly considered moving out. So I looked at 6 apartments in 3 days...in addition to working. It was a little crazy. Luckily everything appears to be working out; I had a great conversation with them last night and I think things are good (at least for now....). I also definitely realize(d) that I have things I need to be better about, and as they and my landlord correctly pointed out (or at least my interpretation of what they said), this situation is one where I am safe and they are people who care about me and do want to support me, just in their own way. And they aren't going to take responsibility for my shit. Which is as it should be. Plus, anywhere else I moved, who knows how it would be. And it could definitely be worse. So here I stay.

Now I'm making plans to volunteer (find something interesting to do that will be helpful and give me some new/expanded skills), possibly go to a UU church or Quaker meeting (!!) and take a yoga class...? I also have to buy a mattress. And more clothes. I realized today also that my coat is inadequate for this New York winter...so there's that. Always something. Okay, this is totally boring, I'm sorry. At some point I'll have interesting things to say again...just obviously not right now.